Lets Talk About It #1 - I CUT MY HAIR

NOT COMPLETELY OFF!

But majority of it so it's actually really really REAAAAALLLLYYYY short!

You're probably wondering why? Well let me tell you, and no there's not just one reason...

One of the reasons I decided to cut my hair off was simply because it was dead. When I got to university I completely neglected it and just put in braids and wore wigs because I couldn't be asked to deal with my hair. As always in life, every decision we make has a consequence, either good or bad. The consequence of me not bothering with my hair was it just dying off.  Whilst my hair was breaking my soul was going through rejuvenation. I was going to counselling and feeling much better being able to express how I truly felt. This was the point where I decided I wanted to make a drastic change...

In one of my previous posts I spoke about my anxiety and lack of confidence and how I want all that to change but I didn't want to wait and make it another

"new years resolution".

Then I remembered a YouTube video I watched by a girl called Breeny Lee. She shaved her hair off for symbolic reasons also. I decided that's exactly what I wanted to do. Believe I decided to do this months ago but I kept putting it off. I made the decision to do it on my birthday but I know myself so well that when my birthday comes (in September, don't forget x) I would just push the date back even further.

If you know me, then you know how much hair means to me. I've always thought that my hair was my beauty. I sit for hours on end watching people do their hair and planning my future hairstyles. When I was younger I would save every penny I got to buy any hair products I saw online that I desperately wanted. That's why I decided cutting my hair off would really take me out of my comfort zone so I could begin to love myself for me and not for what was sitting on my head and how it made me look. So on the

6th August 2017

I bought hair scissors and got my brother's girlfriend to just chop it off. I was surprised cause I thought I would cry but I actually didn't. I still don't even know how to feel. I'll gradually get used to it though.

If there's anything I've come to understand growing up, we all get so caught up in looking good. I'm not saying wanting to look good is a bad thing but when it gets to the point of vanity. When it reaches the point that you're pointing out other people's flaws but fail to see your own. When  you become so self absorbed in what you look like you forget to work on your inner being, that's when it becomes an issue. It sounds so cheesy but beauty does come from within guys. I said this to someone the other day and they said they could taste the cheese. However, I'm being so serious. Personality is everything. Being loving, kind, peaceful. Being able to humble yourself. Being able to show compassion and so forth are what makes a person truly beautiful. I myself am trying not to get caught up in the world's standard of beauty because to be honest, it changes everyday, No point in trying to keep up because you will literally kill yourself trying to be what the world deems as beautiful.

If you haven't noticed I'm starting a new series called "Lets Talk About It" where I will be discussing various topics and just saying what's on my mind. If you have any ideas and suggestions feel free to contact me.

Thanks for reading x