Living with chronic pain: Grieving the body I wish I had
Grief is not just for the dead. Grief is for anything you have lost, anything you never had, and anything you are slowly realising you may never get. It is not linear, it is not logical and it does not wait for a convenient moment to show up. It just arrives. And sometimes it arrives in the middle of a week where you can barely move and a painkiller that was supposed to be strong does absolutely nothing.
This Is Not What I Planned
This is not what I planned is a sentence most of us have said; about a season of life, career choice, where you'd be by a certain age, a prayer that didn't get the answer we wanted. But the question sitting underneath all of it is: who are you actually following?The vision or the God who gave it?
For The Burnt Out Believer
Because this father doesn't fake it. He doesn't perform faith he doesn't have. He just cries out one of the most honest statements (or prayer if you will) in all of Scripture: "Lord, I believe; help thou my unbelief." (Mark 9:24)
Handling Life Without Losing Yourself
When I worked in nurseries, one of the key life lessons to instil in the little bubbas, was resilience. It was so funny, because a child would climb up onto something, then when t
Be Where Your Feet Are
I find it so funny how the older generation always says us Gen Z are chronically online. And yeah, a lot of us probably are glued to our phones. But as a child of immigrant parents, with family sca
Hollow Spaces With a Heavy Feeling
Christmas is around the corner everybodyyyyyyy! Personally, I believe we can start the countdown from now. <img src="https://taneshaschronicles.wordpress.com/wp-
Everything Feels Wrong, BUT...
Last month, my husband and I took my niece out for a birthday outing. On the way back, baby girl was exhausted from the fun and fell asleep. Whilst she was resting beautifully, little was she aware
Upright On The Inside
“Sit up straight”, “stand up straight”, “You need to have good posture”. I'm sure you've heard one of those statements in your lifetime. There are numerous benefits to having good posture.
The Paradox of Self-Preservation: Protecting Yourself from Happiness
Self-preservation: the action of keeping yourself safe or alive in a dangerous situation, often without thinking about what you are doing </block
You Know My Name
It's Sabbath evening. I decided to have a mini worship session on my own. I put my headphones on, pressed shuffle on my gospel playlist and began belting out the tunes. From the Kirk Franklin to th
Fighting for Joy
17 Even though the fig trees
2022 Reflection: Sinking or Walking?
2022 was a messy year for me. There were some shiny spots but overall, full of dust. The word ‘suffocate’ comes to mind as I reflect on this year. Constantly feeling as though I was drowning. My he
Seeing Is Deceiving
So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the thi
Foreboding Joy, Tempting Destruction
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! <img src="https://taneshaschronicles.wordpress.com/w
Gift Yourself Grace
I hear the word grace in church all the time. I learn about grace being a gift from God (Ephesians 2:8). Therefore it is something freely given, I do not need to work to 'earn
Healing Isn't Linear
TW// mentions self harm & suicide “The very thing that used to hold me, is the thing I’m now fighting with” – Sarah Jakes Roberts <p
Love vs Lust
I was scrolling through Twitter the other day and came across someone’s tweet that said, “Being lusted after isn’t the same as being genuinely pursued” and it hit me – I’ve never experienced genuin
Invest In Yourself
There are so many things out of our control and this year has really emphasised that. However, there are some things we as individuals do have control over. How we see ourselves, take care of ourse
Words of Affirmation: A Problematic Love Language
We all love to hear compliments and receive praise every so often. It’s that little reminder or small push that we are doing something well or that we are appreciated by those around us. Fo
Best of Friends: The Gut & Brain
So often we hear that phrase “you are what you eat”. This phrase is so common but holds so much truth. This doesn’t just ring a bell regarding physical food and what we taste but also what we feed
The "Nocebo Effect": Are Your Thoughts Killing You?
It’s actually a wild question – “are your thoughts killing you?”. But believe me, they just could be. Let me tell you a story that I heard about that can be found in an <a href="https://ww
THE NEED FOR SAFETY IS ACTUALLY RISKY
Juxtapositions - got to love them! One of my favourite literary devices to use. The idea of safety being risky really struck me on my walk today. As in, I'm sitting here in the park realisi
#DevotionsWithTee: Are You Gonna Bounce or Believe?
Luke 8 – Luke 8 is a combination of stories. We go from Jesus casting out demons, to teaching a parable, Then Jesus calming the storm, Then casting out demon again, Then we meet a man named Jairus
Connect the Dots
The idea of disassociating from oneself seems a tad strange right? I agree. Yet, it's such a real thing and as of late I definitely experienced disassociation from myself and the world aro
The 'Inferiority Complex'
What is an inferiority complex? It has been defined in one dictionary as "An unrealistic feeling of gene
Down In The Jungle: Parents Impact On Emotional Wellbeing #2
The only way I properly express myself properly is through writing. Having worked with children I come across a lot of stories with talking animals, wizards, witches and other magical fantasies. S
Behind The Filters
*swipe, swipe, swipe* *tap, tap, tap* *like, like, like* *comment, comment, comment* Social media – we can all agree it’s fun, useful, but when it gets to a certain
#DevotionsWithTee: From Dejected to Redeemed
I LOVE THIS BOOK IN THE BIBLE OMDSSSSSSS! I must confess I’ve never actually read it. So when it came up as the next thing to read in my bible study guide I was so excited. I thought I was
#DevotionsWithTee - Hope Within 4 Walls
Being stuck indoors has me sinking back into depression. I’m suddenly forced to be alone with my thoughts. I’ve been made to come to a halt from the everyday frenzies of life and just… rest? <
Self Harm: My (Short) Story
I started self-harming around the age of 14. A lot was going on. Dealing with bullying, my illnesses, family illnesses, other stresses and it really took a toll on me.
Mental Strength vs Mental Health: There's a difference?
Short answer – yes. Long answer – well… Let me explain! These days people get really confused between promoting mental strength and mental health; even I get confused at times until
Planting the Seed
Galatians 5:22-23: “But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such th
Fading Scars
TRIGGER WARNING: the following includes mentions of self-harm and suicide ATTENTION: I PROMISE this is not a negative post – more a reflective post with a happy ending So another en
The Emotion of Confusion
In the midst of my early morning prayer, I felt prompted to write this. It’s weird. A sort of urge. (Might have just been my own as this is how I release pain so don’t take my word for it)</p
BEWARE OF THE BURNOUT MAN
Who is the Burnout Man you ask? Much like the boogeyman, he creeps up on you when you least expect it. When all the stress has piled up and you've given in. The Burnout Man
Let's Talk About It #10 - Parents Impact On Emotional Wellbeing
The problem starts when a parent fails to recognise that a child is actually a human being. A separate entity. A whole individual. Many parents without even realising raise their child to be a refl
#DevotionsWithTee - Miracles Still Happen
“The reason why we don’t experience big miracles, is because we forget that we serve a mighty God” Sometimes I read the bible and some stories, and I think to myself, how comes I don’t
#DevotionsWithTee - The Heart Transplant
INTRO OF TOPIC Today’s topic is about the heart:In Proverbs 4:23, we are called to keep our hearts with all diligence for out of it flow the issues of life. In other words gua
#SuicideAwarenessWeek: My Truth
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠ Okay, so this post will be more like a stream of consciousness. I am about to be really vulnerable but that's what this is about right? So, on the 10th of September, every year is
'Gratitude Is a Must'
Yesterday evening I felt so guilty. I had a beautiful day out on the beach with church friends and family. The sun was out and so was I. I was just resting my head on my pillow, loo
I Wonder ...
I wonder what it feels like to actually want to go home. I wonder what it feels like to be at ‘home’. <p style="color:#9d7d1e;" clas
Let's Talk About It #9 - Following My Heart Post University
I write for those who are too scared to follow their dreams. To take that leap and aim for the sky. Those who sit and day dream about their life goals whilst staying stagnant and not ma
Impatience Turns You Sour!
"God is outside of time, but operates within time" I've been reflecting on life for a while now. Reflecting o
Let's Talk About It #8 - It was all my fault.
I love reflecting. I also hate reflecting. I like looking back on good times. I hate remembering bad times. However, the way my brain is set up I replay everything over and over and over and over...
Let's Talk About It #7 - The Spirit of Envy
I just needed to release this off my chest and I know many people will be able to relate to this - possibly. I've realised I'm a very envious person. Especially these days. Envy has actuall
Finding My Rhythm
It has actually been forever since I touched this blog. Last time I posted I was on a journey. I still am on that journey. However, sometimes on journeys we get lost and fall off the grid... I have
21 Years vs 10 Months
PLEASE READ BEFORE WATCHING This video is a day late due to technical reasons I do not own a professional camer
God amidst my pain: Venting Sessions
Disclaimer: This MAY be (a little) lengthy as I'm just writing from my heart & mind. Honestly, I just needed to vent without response. My mind has been so restless. Espe
Remain Humble!
Last night I came across the story of Naaman in the Bible (found in 2 Kings Chapter 5) and my mind instantly said 'Humble Yourself!' A synopsis of the story is Naaman was a great Captain. He was stru
Let's Talk About It #6 - "Boys Will Be Boys"
There I was lying down, tapping through snaps as I normally do then this one snap came up that triggered me. The question was along the lines of 'have you ever been told that if a boy teases you it
Insecure? Incapable -REALITY CHECK
PANICK ATTACK. ANXIETY IS REAL. I spent the night tossing and turning. I woke up at 8 past every hour (I know because I checked whenever I woke up). When the morni
Movin' On Up
I’m pressing on the upward way, New heights I’m gaining every day; Still praying as I onward bound, “Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.” - Johnson O
Let's Talk About It #5 - I'm An Individual
If there's one thing I don't like it's being put in a bracket and people creating a certain perception of me based on a stereotypical judgement. I'm talking in regards to my race and my sex. Okay, I
"Lost In The Sauce" - A University Experience
~ IT IS SO EASY TO LOSE WHO YOU ARE AS A PERSON ~ Let me start off with a little story... My friens came to University as an individual who thou
Let's Talk About It #4 - A Real Sisterhood?
“We're connected, as women. It's like a spiderweb. If one part of that web vibrates, if there's trouble, we all know it, but most of the time we're
"Gracefully Broken" - Moments of Enlightenment #2
Your power at work in me I'm broken gracefully I'm strong when I am weak I will be
Let's Talk About It #3 - "Wanty Wanty Cyaan Getty"
Wanty Wanty Cyaan Getty and Getty Getty nuh Wanty If you're not Caribbean, you're probably wondering what that even means. Let me explain. Those who want
What Do You Believe?
Ever heard the phrase "if you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything"... <s
Moments of Enlightenment
I know I said I was going away for a while to regain my emotional energy but God has a funny way of answering prayers. In the moments where I really just wanted to keep myself to myself wer
Sorry.
Disclaimer: This may be triggering. Firstly, I really want to apologise for everyone I'm about to let down. I just know I have to be real with you guys and myself otherwise what's the p
Let's Talk About It #2 - Girls, Bodies, Race & Ignorant Clichés
I'm really loving this series already so many things I have to get off my chest and this is one of them... One thing I absolutely cannot stand is co
Lets Talk About It #1 - I CUT MY HAIR
NOT COMPLETELY OFF! But majority of it so it's actually really really REAAAAALLLLYYYY short! You're probably wondering why? Well let me tell you, and no the
Power of Forgiveness
Last week in church the pastor played a video. If I remember correctly it was a pastor and his wife who are very prominent in ministry. They let this guy from church into their family and
Unconditional Love
So I've really been going through a dark period of life recently and it's been so depressing. Like it really felt as though my prayers weren't being answered until last week when I heard a sermo
Is It Really Well With Our Soul?
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll; whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul. It is well with my soul, i
'Cause I Slay
I really wanted to do this post as a video because it's a topic that has been on my mind since I can remember and I really have a lot to say but I'm still very camera shy - which fits into
A Little Faith, Can Make A Big Difference
I was really anxious writing this post because when I look at the world today, it has really become so sensitive. Nobody wants to hear about God anymore. Everybody just wants to do their o
Wait... Who Am I?
This past weekend I went on a youth retreat surrounding the theme of 'Identity'. It was a real eye opener and quite interesting. One of the things that really stood out was this game that
Why can't I just be at peace?
When reading this post you might think of me as a hypocrite because of the nature of my previous posts because I sure would. However, I'm just trying to be real with you guys & myself.
The 'Set Back' before the 'Come Up'
Since the start of the year I haven't really been in a happy frame of mind. It's like one thing is hurled at me one after the other. It even got to the point where my faith and hope began to waiver. I
"Let Go and Let God"
"Let go and let God" - a phrase I hear time and time again. But what does it really mean? This question has actually been going round in my head for some time now. It's time
"You're A Miracle Baby"
With this post I'm just going to jump straight into the story...</
The Start: What's This All About?
Hi Readers! I have decided to start a blog (again) because I truly felt like I was helping people before by the comments I received and I feel like I want to do that again bu